Cultivate to Eliminate Attachments and Create a New Environment
By a Dafa practitioner
(Clearwisdom.net) Writing about verifying the Fa in recent years is a
process of summarizing former experiences and discovering our shortcomings.
Therefore, I write today to report to our great and merciful Master and fellow
practitioners. Please point out any deficiencies or mistakes. 1. Walking Out of the Shadow of Fear In 2004, after being released from a labor camp, my fear was very pronounced.
In September, the head of the city 610 Office suddenly found me and
wanted to take me to the brainwashing center. I was very nervous and could not
say a word. This person unexpectedly threatened me by saying, "If you don't
go now, the local police and legal bureau will make you go whether you want to
or not. This time I have come to take care of you. Tomorrow I will pick you up
from your elder sister's work unit." That evening, I went to my elder sister's place and explained what was going
on. I let her know what the people from the 610 Office were like, how they had
threatened me, and how I had suffered at the labor camp. The entire evening, bad
thoughts unceasingly ran through my brain. I sent forth righteous thoughts for a
long time to eliminate them and my heart gradually calmed down. What should I do
next? A thought jumped out, "Where is the problem, where does the truth
need to be clarified? I should talk to his family members." The next day, the 610 Office head came to pick me up. I took the chance to
clarify the truth in the courtyard and said, "This is someone
from the city 610 Office that has specifically targeted Falun Gong and will not
let us study 'Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.' They claim that my thinking
is questionable and they want to 'reform' me today. If I do not came back today,
please be a witness: it is this man who took me away." The 610 Office head
was very angry. I returned at noon. When I got out of the vehicle, I started to explain to
the people who were selling steamed buns by the roadside and the cleaning crew,
"This is a 610 Office person." Then I stated that he had been
persecuting practitioners for abiding by "Truthfulness, Compassion,
Forbearance" for the past several years. I talked as I walked, all the way
home. In the afternoon, after I finished sending forth righteous thoughts, my
heart still beat too fast. I wished that Master would strengthen me so that I
would not be so excited. I calmed down and went out to clarify the truth. I went
to home of the head of the 610 Ofice. His mother was sitting downstairs, so I
started to tell her what her son had done, how Falun Gong is spread, and about
the world organizations to investigate the persecution of Falun Gong. I stated
the advantages and disadvantages. Finally I told her that if her son continued
to willfully persecute Falun Gong, he would face being sued. For her son's
future, she must stop him. My voice was a little bit loud and a group of people
came over to listen, so I clarified the truth to them and answered their
questions. I thought in my heart, "It Master's merciful arrangement to let
so many people hear the truth." Later I went to the head person's wife's
work unit and clarified the truth to her and her co-workers. I heard afterwards that this head person was chided by his mother after
returning home. From his words I could tell that he was afraid that I might sue
him. Later it seemed that my elder sister was also controlled by the evil that had
manipulated her own brother, so I went to my parents' home and told them the
cause and effect of this event. I learned that my sister was afraid of this and
didn't tell our parents about it. Through this matter, I realized that the evil
was afraid of being exposed. Telling the truth should be open and aboveboard. It
is they who should be afraid. 2. Walking Out of Selfishness, Improving Collectively In May 2005, the local coordinator was illegally arrested and the
truth-clarification materials production site was destroyed. Our area started
constructing another site. However, the interference never stopped and sometimes
materials were out of stock. When fellow practitioners ran out of materials,
they came to me. At that time, I had purchased a PC, a CD burner, and some blank
CDs, and I made CDs by myself. I spread these CDs by myself and felt safe
because there was no connection to anyone else, so I didn't pay attention anyone
else's business. In fact, my fear was strong and I wanted to protect myself. Many fellow practitioners came to consult with me. I had a misunderstanding
with the coordinator at that time. I thought that only those who studied the Fa
and cultivated very well would be qualified to be a coordinator. So when I heard
that someone was a coordinator, I took it for granted that he would have to be
extraordinary. Because of this wrong perception, I was reluctant to take the
responsibility of being a coordinator. That bad thought always interfered with
me. On the other hand, I thought that if I did not do it, who would? Everyone
was waiting and depending on someone else. Time doesn't wait. If Master lets
you, do you or do you not take on the responsibility? Certainly you do. When
others all look up to you, isn't it an arrangement by Master? I looked at
Master's photo, and Master was smiling. I understood immediately. I went to a
site for truth clarifying materials. When the local site started operating
normally, the shipping the materials naturally became my job. After the start of "three withdrawals" from the Chinese Communist
Party (CCP) organizations, fellow practitioners came to me for Internet
connection questions. I no longer rejected them. Instead I found someone who
could do it. Thus, I have naturally became a "coordinator." Master
said, "The coordinators among Dafa disciples are in fact just coordinators,
points of contact, and people who relay information..." ("Teaching
the Fa at the Meeting with Asia-Pacific Students") The coordinator is not the leader, so practitioners should not treat the
coordinator as a leader and follow his or her every step, like a monk in a
temple. Master said, "The main reason is that people such as senior monks, supervisors, or
abbots in temples are not necessarily of great inborn quality. Though they are
abbots or senior monks, these are only positions of everyday people. They are
also practitioners, except that they are professional ones. You practice
cultivation at home as amateurs. Whether one succeeds in cultivation all
depends on cultivating the heart. The same is true for everyone, and one
cannot fall short even a bit." ("Lecture Seven" from "Zhuan
Falun," 2000 translation version) Master asks us not to forget to cultivate our xinxing
while doing Dafa work, and to progress diligently on the path of Fa
rectification. In 2005, with the help of fellow practitioners from other towns, our area set
up several Fa study sites and resumed group study. As soon as the Fa
study site was set up, there was more contact among fellow practitioners and
conflicts followed one after another. The side of me that hadn't learned the Fa
thoroughly was exposed. I paid too much attention to routine work and not to
cultivating my mind, and I sometimes became angry with fellow practitioners. I
finally had to remind myself not get angry every time before I met with fellow
practitioners. Although I did not perform well, I felt lucky that fellow practitioners
didn't contradict me or set up barriers between us. They always supported me.
Looking into their hearts, I felt ashamed. I remembered that an older
practitioner who talks excessively often came to my home. I once pointed this
out to her but she didn't change much. Her behavior made me anxious, and I spoke
to her too harshly. I felt that she was delaying my Fa study time. Afterwards I
regretted my behavior. When she came to my home again I warned myself: "Do not get angry and do
not interrupt her. Be calm, like a practitioner." She started to be
garrulous about some Fa clarification work she had done and how her heart had
wavered during certain situations. Suddenly, a kind of respect emerged from my
heart, sincere respect for this fellow practitioner. Walking through all the
difficulties over these past years has really not been easy. I was no longer
anxious about her, but felt that she was very endearing. Through this, I learned
not to be attached to others' shortcomings, to put down my own feelings, and to
look inside: enhancing ones own xinxing is of primary importance. During this period, another thing happened that I didn't understand until
today. Now I have a clear understanding of a coordinator's function. There are
many practitioners in the nearby township that have created a very good
cultivation environment. Group study and practice had persisted for two to three
years. Since the "three withdrawals" began, they have done better and
better. Compared with them, we lag far behind. There are few practitioners here
and fewer practitioners who can clarify the truth face-to-face. So we spread
more truth clarification materials and the Nine Commentaries on the
Communist Party. After helping us set up the group study site, a coordinator from a nearby
township mentioned my function as a coordinator many times: "The goal is to
improve as one body through group experience sharing." From his
conversation, I felt that he was very anxious about the situation in our area.
However, I just didn't know how to coordinate so everyone could be lifted up
together. When writing this draft, I suddenly realized that Master said, "Actually, long ago I told the regional coordinators to manage things
loosely, and that, except when it comes to group efforts, which need
coordination, they shouldn't restrict the path that each Dafa disciple takes
as an individual who's validating the Fa. So other than when it's a case of
something bad for Dafa and the coordinator needs to put a stop to it, each
Dafa disciple has to fully play his role and proactively do what he should as
a Dafa disciple. " ("Teaching the Fa at the Meeting with
Asia-Pacific Students") I realized that raising each practitioner's xinxing is a matter for
each individual practitioner. Practitioners should not rely on the coordinator.
The path of Fa verification is walked by oneself. 3. Breaking Old Concepts, and Creating Small Truth-clarification Materials
Sites Everywhere I used to think that the person responsible for truth-clarification materials
sites should choose the best, those that could put down their attachment to life
and death, and those that had good cultivation of speech. When I saw that a
practitioner who lagged behind after the persecution started had just come back
to manage the materials site, I felt conflicted, "What type of person
should be responsible for a materials site?" Looking at my own experience,
I realized that the person responsible would meet this condition as long as he
is doing the three things. I remembered that I had once read an
article on the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, where a fellow practitioner said,
"Fa truth clarification materials sites are the key targets of the evil's
destruction." Because I was affected by the influence of such a concept, I
put the practitioners working for the materials sites in the position where the
evil persecuted them most heavily. I think that we should not acknowledge such
ideas. Let those practitioners who have the ability set up more materials and
Internet connection sites. Those who are suited should validate the Fa at their
positions. From whatever position, we can all walk a path for Fa validation. Finally I would like to use a segment from Master's poem to encourage
everyone: "The paths of cultivation are varied ("Unimpeded" from "Hong Yin" II,
translation version A)
But none is outside the Great Law
When one is attached to nothing
The path underfoot is naturally smooth"
Chinese version available at
http://www.minghui.org/mh/articles/2006/10/21/140242.html
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